Work

I'm really starting to struggle. My responsibilities at work have changed and I'm doing entry level work all of a sudden and that's probably giving the level of difficulty in my work too much credit.

I'm attempting to tough it out but when I'm making four times the rate when I play cards, it's really tough to sit here and read text messages that say "great 400 game going on."

It's agonizing actually.

Anyways I'm hoping to get to HP and hit for the $200 I need to surpass $7000 this month. After that, I think I'll take a break until Sunday, which is the first of March.

Today I'm really feeling burned out. I'm tired and data entry combined with a shitload of copy and pasting just doesn't get the adrenaline going like flopping a set of fives or bluffing a scare card on the turn.

I need to reset my focus. I'm pretty sure I know why I lost the last two sessions: I'm getting lazy and somewhat sloppy; I'm playing too many hands, which means I'm chasing more draws and trying to crack more opponents with ugly two pairs and inside straights. I need to sharpen up.

I'm not the best player and never claimed to be and I have to realize what makes me better than others. I need to sit at a table and evaluate each player and come up with a strategy on how I can beat each opponent because everyone plays uniquely and thus everyone loses uniquely. To me.

Let's get it done.

Hopefully if you're reading this and you play, you're winning right now or winning tonight or whenever you play again, you win.

I didn't play yesterday. I had a basketball game and we got our asses torched. By 20. And we're supposed to be the best team. It was actually a team of Hollywood promoters (mostly ex-college players) and every one of them caught fire sometime during the game. I played terribly and so did our other two main scorers.

Tonight I have a game in a different league at Bev Hills HS and hopefully I'll hit for 20+ because we're playing the first place team (we're second). Something about the Beverly Hills HS gym that just makes me shoot badly. I hate it but last game I did better so I'm optimistic. My friend feels the same way about Commerce Casino and his poker game. Just one of those things, there's no level of comfort there.

After my game I'm hoping to get to Hollywood Park around 930 pm and hit them for a few hundred. Can't be too greedy.

I realize this is pretty much a ranting entry but I also realized that all my posts were getting so one-dimensional with the poker shit.

Peace and good luck.